I spent a good portion of today lost in my feelings, trying to figure out how to change a situation so that it might have an outcome that was more desirable to me. It was exhausting. I started to think…I’m not taking very good care of myself today, emotionally. I began to brainstorm what I could do to help myself. Eat healthy. Check. Workout. Check. Meditation? Nope, hadn’t tried that one yet.
I went looking for mediation videos for submissives. You probably just got a chuckle out of that. That’s not exactly what I found, but I did find an incredible video put out by Jason Stephenson (my absolute favorite in the world of guided meditations!), titled “Surrender Meditation”.
My favorite part of this meditation went like this:
“Whatever it is, it is out of your control, and this can be deeply frightening at times. In much of the Western world we are taught that control, objectives, and contingency plans are what will keep us safe. You probably have a plan for any given area of your life. A back up plan in case that doesn’t work out. And, an absolutely worse case scenario, and how you would cope with it. There is nothing wrong with this, and in fact, thinking strategically usually lowers anxiety and results in excellent outcomes. But what this mindset doesn’t teach you is that you can’t control everything. Even if you are a centered, compassionate being, this is deeply unsettling. And yet, past this fear, lies peace. A peace that is impossible to disrupt.” ~ Jason Stephenson
I will stop trying to control the situation which I find myself presently in and just let it be whatever it is going to be. My heart is open. My mind is at peace.
Thank you to all of you who showed me great support and compassion today. You mean the world to me.