These last few days have been a peaceful break from the chaos that has consumed my life as of late. I am momentarily in between big projects and find myself able to just breathe and sit awhile. This gives me the time and space to reflect on where I am, who I am, and what I want for the future.
As a couple, Daddy and I are strong. We are both a bit worn out from all the home improvement projects we’ve undertaken but for the most part, we have been working well together. I have been doing my best to speak to him respectfully but tend to fall short of this goal when I am feeling stressed or pressured for time. Our DD has greatly subsided. We haven’t done a maintenance session in a few weeks and I am having trouble recalling the last time he gave me a good spanking. I know that this is part of the normal rhythm of power exchange dynamics, waxing and waning, but I feel that we can do better. Yes, we have a lot going on at the moment, but we’ve been making time for sex…we can make time for our DD too, we just have to be more conscientious of it.
But there is something else. You all know that Daddy was fully on board with me exploring a D/s dynamic with another. He was involved at every turn and we continue to talk through everything. Sometimes I worry though that me having a power exchange dynamic with another man is too hard on him. Daddy says he is okay. He tells me that the discomfort he experiences around my dynamic with Sir is manageable and that if it ever becomes too much that he will be honest with me. I know I need to trust in him to communicate his feelings, but as his wife… I do worry extensively about his well being. Daddy means everything to me…he is my husband, my life partner, my best friend, and my lover. He is my past, present, and future. This gift he is giving me…allowing me to explore my submission with another dominant person…is profound. I can only hope that me getting my needs met in this very unconventional way doesn’t cause him too much emotional turmoil. But what is too much…how do I measure that?
Meanwhile, my Dynamic with Sir is on a temporary hold, if you will. He is traveling and together, we decided it might be easier to suspend our Dynamic, as we are unable to correspond in real time (only emails). Sir has been very sweet and consistent about sending emails, but I am finding the lack of structure and guidance from him to be something I greatly miss. I am still required to follow my health and safety rules, but everything else is on hiatus. I imagine we will pick up where we left off when he returns, but for now…all’s quiet on the D/s front.
So there you have it….one naughty girl, two Doms, and a whole lot of nothing going on in the submission department at the moment! This girl really needs a spanking….