Directed spankings & The lie #NSFW, 18+

Hello, my naughty friends!

Greetings from my kinky part of the world.  I have been all kinds of busy lately between serving my HOH (my Daddy!), and my Dominant (Sir).  Life is GOOD at the moment and I am GRATEFUL for that.  Having faced a lot of hardship and loss the last few years, this girl is taking her good times where she can find them 😊.

You might remember that I left my readers on a bit of a cliff hanger a few posts ago (and thanks a lot to those of you who suggested I needed a spanking for this behavior!).  In my post, “A Trial Run” I began to share my experiences with my new Dom, formerly known as Mr. Intriguing.  I wrote a bit about the assignments he gives me each week, his expectations, and our mutual affinity for discipline spanking. 

The thing is, Sir is VERY strict.  While he is also super affectionate, kind, and very fair…he doesn’t tolerate any of my naughtiness!  With the combination of his strictness and my penchant for naughty behavior, Sir finds it necessary to spank me with great regularity (and he makes me track my spankings in my journal!).

As I started to describe in my recent post, Sir had sent me to fetch the leather paddle, the strap, and the wooden paddle with holes in it for my first spanking from him.  Now, if you haven’t been following along… Sir and I are long-distance (and always will be).  A “directed spanking” is exactly what it sounds like…a spanking that Sir directs.  Before starting this spanking, he gave me a stinging lecture which had me in tears (and my spanking hadn’t even started yet!).  After he had given me plenty of assurances that I was inherently a good girl who needed a spanking for her misbehavior, the spanking began.

I won’t give the blow by blow (pun intended 😊) for this spanking, but I will tell you that it was incredibly effective!  His words, combined with the spanking, had me crying real tears from both the pain and my regret over my misbehavior.  The entire process lasted about an hour.  After the lecture and spanking, Sir had a long talk with me, reassuring me that I was forgiven and that I had a clean slate.  Next came corner time, where he directed me to think about what it means to break my commitments.  Lastly, he assigned me 25 lines to be written in my journal, photographed, and sent to him as proof of my obedience. 

When the entire discipline process was over, Sir and I debriefed the experience.  While I had been a bit skeptical that a “directed spanking” would be effective for me (as I am spanked in real life by my husband), I was now a firm believer!  I know that a big part of why his directed spanking was so effective was due to the quality of Sir’s lecture.  The man has a way with words, my friends!  But, the spanking was painful too.  Sir would give clear instructions during the spanking such as, “deliver three swats with the wooden paddle to your right sit spot” and so on, ensuring that my entire bottom (and tops of my thighs!) were thoroughly spanked.

The thing is… I didn’t realize at the time that I was experiencing a fair amount of sub frenzy after the event.  And, I did something really bad…something that almost cost me my new dynamic.  I broke my promise to Daddy AND I lied to Sir.  Let me explain.

Directly after that first spanking, and super high on post-spanking endorphins, I offered to send Sir a picture of myself.  But, the thing is… I had promised Daddy that I would not send any pictures of myself until the 3-month mark (and at that time, he would consider allowing me to reveal my true identity to Sir).  Immediately, Sir asked me if I had permission from Daddy to send him a picture.  He even said something to the effect of, “that doesn’t sound like something your Daddy would allow at this point.”  But, in my post-spanking haze… I lied my well-spanked ass off.  I really wanted Sir to know what his submissive looked like (sorry, my vanity coming through).  And so… I proceeded to do exactly as I pleased…and I sent Sir a picture of myself.  In the moment, it felt so good to share my image with Sir and he was very pleased to see me.  But later that night….

Later that night the guilt consumed me.  Daddy has been so generous in allowing me to experience this dynamic and the first shot I had… I had blown it.  So, I came clean to Daddy.  I told him exactly what had happened.  He was pretty mad at me…but, he was also empathetic…and he understood how I had sort of “lost control” in that moment.  He forgave me almost instantly and said that because I had been honest with him about my transgression, that I could continue on with my dynamic.  I was in total disbelief!  My husband is such a rock star, you guys…truly, he is the BEST person.  But, he did tell me that I should be honest with Sir too.  And I begged him not to make me tell Sir.  Daddy questioned me about this and I told him… I was afraid Sir would break things off if he knew I had lied to him.  As I had come clean with him, Daddy decided to allow me to make my own decision in this matter, but strongly suggested that I be honest with Sir.  And, as you probably guessed…he gave me a VERY painful spanking for disobeying him and sending that picture to Sir. 

Well, I was back in Daddy’s good graces, but what to do about Sir?  I wish I could tell you that I acted with more integrity…but I was scared.  This dynamic meant so much to me.  I was very worried that Sir would basically dump me if I told him the truth.  After all, he had specifically asked me if I had Daddy’s permission to send that picture…and I had lied right to his face.  I just couldn’t tell him the truth.

And, I allowed this lie to linger between us for 18 days…

I am very ashamed of this behavior.  In my next post about my dynamic with Sir, I will share with you what happened next…

Thank you for following my journey, my friends!  I hope that I haven’t let you down here…with my dishonesty.  I will openly tell you that I am imperfect and that I make mistakes just like anyone.  I am extremely grateful that my Daddy (and my Sir) are incredibly forgiving men.  I’m not quite sure what I did to deserve either of their affections, but I sure am blessed to be traveling this road with both of them.

XOXO,

nora 

      

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  1. This is an incredibly powerful confession and drama. I’m not sure what to say about it off the top of my head, but I’m glad your Daddy was so understanding, and I hope your Sir will feel the same. You should be very ashamed of your behavior but, my opinion is that, if you were perfect, you wouldn’t need these kinds of relationships. I look forward to hearing what happened.

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    1. I appreciate you reading this particular piece, Franz… and I will assure you that I was very much ashamed of my behavior. Lying is not something that I take lightly. Growing up, my Dad used to always tell us that our integrity was the one thing that no one could take from us and that there was much value in living up to our word and our promises. I felt TERRIBLE after this which is why I confessed to Daddy immediately. I wish I had told Sir right away too, shown that trust in him. It took me three long weeks to finally get up the courage.

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  2. Oh honey. I had to learn the hard way not to do ANYTHING on the high of post spanking endorphins. I have done a lot of things (that ended this girl up in rehab a fair few times) but there is nothing that makes me as wild as those post spanking endorphins. I have to sit my well spanked butt down or be cuddled until I’m calm and rational. I’m glad that you came clean and that your Daddy is such a rockstar and forgave you immediately. My husband isn’t so focused on privacy (especially since I’m just a commenter) bug I assume it would be akin to my relapses in terms of his disappointment. I hope all is well after this frenzy! Much love as always.

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    1. Thank you for your support, Grace Marie! Post spanking endorphins can make me do and feel crazy things. In person, Daddy always holds me until I am myself again….but with Sir, we don’t have this option. Sir and I are navigating this much better now and he is always on the lookout for sub frenzy and sub drop. I feel very fortunate that my husband was so understanding of the situation…he really is the BEST 🙂

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    1. Thank you for following my journey, Thomas. This was one of the more difficult posts for me to write… as it makes me feel very vulnerable. But, D/s is all about vulnerability and accountability…and, it was important to me to confess my transgression here to my readers. Naughty nora is definitely not a perfectly behaved girl!

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      1. I can only imagine that if I were to share such an embarrassing episode in such exposed detail with an audience that it would only intensify my feelings of shame, like a humiliating punishment in itself.

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        1. Yes…you hit the nail on the head, Thomas. This is my way of shaming myself a bit. I did a very bad thing and while Daddy and Sir both punished me for it (and forgave me), I thought it only right to put myself out there to my readers as well. I try to be as authentic as I can be here.

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            1. Yes, it does. I think that is part of the reason why spanking is so effective for me. I feel a huge amount of shame surrounding misbehavior and to alleviate that shame, that guilt…I don’t know…spanking just works for me that way….

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  3. Oh my goodness. Since so much time has passed, and since you’ve already been lectured and punished and appear to have learned from this, I won’t be as hard on you as I want to be! But you cannot be making such poor choices any more. Your poor decision to defy your Daddy’s trust and to lie to your Sir put all of you in jeopardy of losing something and of being hurt. I do believe you’ve learned from this, and are very remorseful, so I’ll stop there.

    We all make mistakes. We are more at risk of making mistakes when in subfrenzy. I know, from experience! So keep that in mind moving forward and you’ll be fine.
    Xoxo

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    1. My face went red with shame as I read this comment, Miss D….you don’t have to be easy on me….I completely deserve the lecture welling up inside you. Time has passed (I came clean to Sir at the end of January) and I was properly punished by both Daddy and Sir. It was definitely a mistake and one I will NOT repeat. This dynamic is a privilege and I won’t put it at risk that way again. Subfrenzy was nuts! I still feel a touch of it now and then, but for the most part, I am back in control of myself. Don’t get me wrong… I still misbehave sometimes…but I’m not putting myself or my marriage (or my dynamic) at risk. Thank you for caring enough to be so stern with me! I absolutely earned it. XOXO.

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  4. I have to catch up on my reading! I’ve fallen behind! Sounds like you found what you needed. Congratulations. I look forward to catching up and reading where you go from here.

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    1. Thank you for following my journey, David! I just created a menu on my main page titled “My D/s journey with Sir” so that these particular posts are easy for readers to find. I’ve been getting a lot of private emails about how an on-line dynamic might work, so I thought it would be helpful. I greatly appreciate your readership 🙂

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        1. Hi Miss D! So, all I’ve ever used are the free profile themes from WordPress, which I find pretty easy to use once you find a theme that you like. To see what your specific theme currently is and what it can do…on a computer (the screen view is always different on a phone), open up your WordPress account, click on “my site”, on the left hand side click on “appearance”. You can click on “customize”, or if you are looking for the specific function that David and I were talking about, click on “Menus”. Good luck 🙂

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  5. I can totally understand why you told the lie, but of course it’s not good that you did it, and always better to come clean. What I also understand, is being scared, and letting it linger. One day runs into the next, and the next, and the next, and before you know, 18 days have past…
    We all learn our lessons, and sometimes we just have to learn them the hard way, right?! Looking forward to reading the next part, and how you and your Sir solved this, because I want to believe your dynamic is still intact.
    ~ Marie xox

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    1. Thank you, Marie! And, I won’t leave you hanging…Sir and I’s dynamic is still very much intact. He dealt with the issue and we have since moved on. It was definitely a learning experience for this girl! Thank you for your support ❤

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  6. We all make mistakes, but it takes a bigger person to admit them and ask for forgiveness. I hope your dynamic is able to continue and he will just dole out a punishment to remind you to always be honest with him as well.

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    1. You are very right, Mary. I did deserve a severe punishment and I promise you that I got one! Thankfully, Sir is full of forgiveness and recognized what I did as a misbehavior, and not a character flaw.

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