Obedience

On a rather uneventful Wednesday afternoon, I find myself moving about my office, cleaning and organizing, acutely aware that my skirt is tucked up into the waistband and that anyone passing by would have a clear view of my bare behind as I had somehow lost my panties…

Thank goodness I am in my home office!  The only prying eyes here are those of my furry companions, and they don’t seem to give a darn about my state of dress, or undress.

And yet, I feel incredibly self-conscious as my skirt swishes around my thighs, the air conditioning blowing a cool breeze across my bottom.  There is something about being almost completely dressed, yet bare in that one place on my body, that makes me feel more naked than actually being naked.

So…why am I cleaning and organizing my office with my bare behind on full display, you ask?  LOL.

The last couple of months, Sir has implemented new daily structure for me.  This began at my request, however, after the initial trial-month period, Sir became fully invested in establishing this structure and holding me accountable to completing my daily exercises.  We’ve dubbed these exercises my “daily exercises in submission” and each day of the week, I complete a designated activity.  Each month, the exercises are switched out (or modified) and the daily schedule changes. 

Every Wednesday afternoon during the month of May, I’ve been made to wear my submission skirt, tucked up and folded into the waistband the way Sir likes it.  Sir has enjoyed me wearing this skirt for him on Zoom sans panties, of course.  In addition to wearing the skirt without panties, tucked up to reveal my bare bottom, I engage in some sort of cleaning or organizational task, hence the cleaning of my office on this particular day.  When I have completed my task, I then write a short reflection on the exercise, and send the write up to Sir the following day.  If he’s lucky, he gets a picture too 😉

My daily exercises in submission have had a profound impact on my ability to remain in a submissive headspace.  While Sir and I instant message often, talk on the phone every other day or so, and meet on Zoom 1-2 times per week, like the naughty girl that I am, I can sometimes fall into old, unhealthy habits.  I’ve found lately though, that I am more consistently feeling “softer” in my relationships (especially with Sir), feeling more submissive, and have a stronger focus on behaving in ways that please Sir.  I find myself more aware of being a submissive girl and all that this entails.  I have felt more peaceful, more at ease within myself, and more grateful for the life I lead and the D/s dynamic that I am in. 

Each day, I wake up, knowing that I have a task to complete for my Sir.  I begin my day by emailing him the short write-up on whatever activity I completed the day before.  I find myself savoring the thought of completing these activities for him, even though many of them have nothing to do with dominance and submission, spanking, or even something remotely sexual.  Perhaps that sounds odd to you, and you might wonder what these activities have to do with my D/s dynamic if they don’t include some element of power exchange or sex.  The answer to that is found in a word that I find all consuming and powerful… obedience.  Each day, I am given the opportunity to obey my Sir by completing an activity of his choosing.  And each day, this reinforces my submission to him.

You might be wondering what my weekly schedule currently looks like and I will gladly share that with you.

On Mondays~ I am to practice Gorean slave positions.  I compiled a list for Sir at the beginning of the month, and I have six positions that I have been practicing.  Last week on Zoom, Sir directed me to demonstrate these poses for him.  I blushed hotly as I obeyed him, facing toward the camera, and dropping into each pose.  Sir then had me turn around and demonstrate the positions facing away from him, my nether regions bare to his gaze.

On Tuesdays~ On this day, I write a gratitude list by hand in a beautiful leather journal.  When I have completed my list, I take a photo of my work, and send this to Sir.

On Wednesdays~ This is the day where I wear my submission skirt, tucked up in back, while I complete a cleaning/organizational activity around the house.

On Thursdays~ This is the day where I focus my writing on something related to D/s.  Each week, I’ve been writing on topics related to D/s (i.e. communication, sexuality, obedience, respect, etc.) and at the end of the month, I will compile them into a comprehensive piece.

On Fridays~ I believe this is currently Sir’s favorite exercise for me to complete.  On this day, I rub capsaicin cream (a highly potent version) onto my sit spots and backs of my thighs.  Within ten minutes, my bottom is stinging, similar to what the aftermath of a spanking feels like.  This sensation lasts most of the day.  I am to write about how I experienced this (and I often am out running errands or meeting with friends on this day) and share my write up with Sir.

On Saturdays~ I am currently reading and working out of The Artist’s Way by Julia Cameron.  This book was designed to help artists unblock themselves and begin creating again.  I LOVE this exercise.

On Sundays~ On this day, I work in my Shadow Journal Workbook.  This is based on the work of Carl Jung and is helping me explore the more difficult parts of myself.  Don’t worry, my friends.  I’ve done this sort of work with my therapist, and I approach this in a thoughtful way, always engaging in self-care afterwards.  I share my work with Sir so that he may continue to explore my heart and my mind. 

So, there you have it!  I feel immersed in my submission to Sir and happy as a clam in my dynamic with him.  Thank you for continuing to follow my kinky journey, my friends.  Oh…and if you have any ideas for exercises in submission for the month of June, please share them below.  I look forward to hearing your naughty thoughts 😊

With love and submission,

nora