I typically try (try being the key word) to keep my blog light- stimulating, I hope- but light. However, we all have those days where the tidal wave of life sweeps over us and threatens to drag us out into murky waters. I have been having a few of those days recently.
As I think about my life and my current situation, I can’t help but wish my inner child’s wish… that nothing would change again. Unfortunately, this last year, I have learned that life changes in an instant and we have very little control sometimes in the situations which matter most.
At one time or another, we are all plagued with depression, self-doubt, angst…some more than others. I am blessed to be able to say that I have led a relatively happy life. Happy childhood, met my husband at 23 right out of college, happy marriage, love my career…I’ve been very lucky. But, then my mom died, unexpectedly.
Due to circumstances in my own life (i.e. recent, tragic deaths of family members), when I read this prompt, all that goes through my frantic mind, is what if Daddy dies? That is something I struggle with a lot right now…every time he walks out the damn door to go to work, I think, what if this is the last time that I see him?
Life happens…and often, it is painful and challenging and relentless and it comes down upon you like a tidal wave.
It is easy to get caught up in the day-to-day, in the hardships, in life...but today, I'm taking a moment to say that despite everything going on in my life right now, I feel lucky.