Battle of Wills

Hello, my kinky readers~

Recently, there was a battle of wills, and unfortunately… I did not win this round.  Looking back on it, I have to smile at my brazenness, even if it has gotten me in A LOT of trouble with Sir.  But let me start at the beginning. 

Sir went away recently on an overseas trip with his family.  During these times, we restrict ourselves to communicating via email only, so that he is present for them and focused on their time together.  How I miss our phone and Zoom calls during these times.  However, prior to him leaving, we spent much time negotiating my Rules for while he would be away.  My point was that he wouldn’t be available to Dominate me in our usual ways, or to Discipline me if I misbehaved.  His point was that most of my Rules are in place to protect my health or my safety, and that regardless of if he were present to enforce the Rules, I should be a good, obedient girl. 

~ sighs

I reluctantly agreed, knowing he was right (hey, even a submissive girl wants a break now and then!). While not all of my Rules were in place while he was gone, Sir did expect me to obey my health and safety Rules.  My health Rules that were to be enforced during this time included working out five times per week, taking my vitamins every day, and tracking my macro-nutrients and reporting these to Sir.  The reason that Sir wants to see my macro-nutrient report is not because he tries to control what I do or don’t eat, but because he knows that it helps me to reach the goals that I have set for myself.  I want to maintain a certain weight and be as healthy as I can be and tracking what I eat is a big part of this.  My safety Rules include no phone while driving. 

Unfortunately (for my seating comfort), I did not behave while Sir was on his vacation.  That first morning he was away… I woke up feeling lonely and resentful.  I know, I know…not very submissive of me.  I decided, on my own accord, that I was NOT going to track my macro-nutrients while Sir was away.  And… I didn’t.  In an email, Sir asked me if I was tracking and I wrote to him that I wasn’t.  He wrote back communicating that he expected me to start following through with our agreement.

And I continued to misbehave.  I did not track my macros, nor did I send Sir my reports a single time in almost two weeks.

So, what was the result of all this misbehavior?

When Sir returned, he informed me that I would be Disciplined for each and every day that I failed to track my macros.  Gulps.  That is almost two weeks worth of Spankings!  And…he is following through on this promise.  Each time that he Spanks me for this misbehavior, he reminds me that I agreed to follow this Rule prior to him leaving on his trip.  His scoldings have brought me to tears and I have been unable to sit comfortably for several days.  And we still have a ways to go until this Discipline is concluded and all of my punishment has been doled out.  Oh, and there has been a lot of corner time and line writing, while sitting on my freshly spanked bottom, about “keeping my commitments” as well.  Sir even made me sit on the scouring pads after a Spanking one day!   

Sir and I have been in our D/s dynamic for a year and a half.  I already knew the man was consistent…but he is being sooooo strict with me!  I (wrongly) thought he would consider this one big misbehavior while he was away.  Man, did I miscalculate things.

Please don’t feel sorry for me though.  I earned each and every Spanking he has given me, and all the ones he will give me in coming days.  I chose to be a naughty girl while he was away and now my bottom is paying the price for that misbehavior. 

Thank you for being consistent with me, Sir.  Thank you for being both loving AND strict with me.  I know my Rules are in place to better my life, and my health and wellness.  I will do better, Sir.

XOXO,

nora