On Restriction

I told a lie. 

In the moment, it felt insignificant.  It was said in haste with little to no thought about the consequences of my actions.

It only took a few moments for what I had done to sink in.  My eyes welled with tears.  I felt terrible.

I texted Sir immediately and told him that I needed to tell him something.  I did this because I was worried that I might chicken out and let the lie remain between us.

Sir called me a few minutes later and I told him what I had done.  He was surprised.  I am very honest with Sir as I understand that the foundation of our Dynamic is trust.  Sometimes it is hard to be honest. Sometimes it is difficult to be brave and say the hard things…but I do.  And so does he. 

Wow, was all he said for a moment.

My heart felt like it was breaking.  I was already crying.  Why had I done something so foolish?  Would this make him want to walk away from our Dynamic? Would this make him feel like he could not trust me anymore?

Sir spanked me soundly for this misbehavior, on the spot.  He sent me for the jokari style paddle, the one with holes in it, which he doesn’t use very often.  I cried the entire time…from the pain, but mostly from my own guilt and remorse.  After, I had to sit in the naughty chair, bare bottom directly on a very scratchy scouring pad, and write a great deal of lines.

Sir hardly lectured me during this spanking, which is unusual for him.  Later, I learned that this was purposeful.  He could hear the intensity of my crying, could hear the remorse in my every word as I kept telling him that I was sorry.  He felt that I knew what I had done and that lecturing me further would be unwarranted.

But he did feel that another type of discipline was warranted.  He placed me on orgasm restriction for three days. 

He has never disciplined me in this way.

I immediately gave my word that I would obey him, and I have.  And I am really, really looking forward to being off restriction tomorrow. Every time that I have wanted to touch myself the last few days, I have thought about the importance of honesty. 

I will think before I speak.  I will strive to be a submissive girl with the greatest integrity.  I will strive to make all of my words and actions honest ones. 

I will do better, Sir.

With love and submission,

nora