Last year around this time, my heart felt broken. There was a man in my life, whom I refer to as Implacable, that I met through this blog. After a year of meaningful correspondence, he took me on as his submissive, very briefly. Nevertheless, he meant a lot to me. My submission to him may have only lasted a short time, but we had built a friendship that felt very significant in my life. His wife was fully aware of me and tried to manage her jealousy surrounding his feelings for me, but in the end, she couldn’t accept me into their life. He has a polyamorous heart, but she does not. Long story short (it is all there, chronicled on my blog), that door was firmly shut.
The thing is…that door may have closed, but another door opened. I will be forever grateful that Implacable and his wife said goodbye with such resolution. Because of that event, I set out to find a Dominant who would accept my submission, and who could have me in his life.
One year ago, in a beautiful act of serendipity, I met Sir.
I could never have imagined that an on-line/on the phone D/s dynamic could be so fulfilling…but here I am, smiling from ear to ear, as I write this to you. Sir is smart, wise, kind, and probably most importantly for a D/s Dynamic…he is consistent. He holds me Accountable to the goals that I set for myself, and he does so in a loving and firm way. He has never told me he is disappointed in me, even when I misbehave, but he also never fails to follow through and Discipline me for that misbehavior.
Sir and I share a very specific kink. I have a big need to be held to high standards, to be held accountable for my behavior. Sir has a big need to hold someone accountable to him, to his standards, and to established rules. We are both in agreement that the best way to hold a young lady accountable is through disciplinary spanking. Sir rarely spanks me for any reason other than discipline (though there was a firm spanking applied to my bottom on my birthday this year 😊).
Sir and I are talking about meeting in person next year. This is something that Daddy is on board with, though we are still working through the tough conversations…what the boundaries will be, etc. The thought of meeting Sir…of experiencing his Dominance in person, is beyond thrilling.
While there are some very hard things happening in my life right now, I want to send a huge THANK YOU to my Sir, for this beautiful year together. Thank you for the gift of your Dominance, Sir! You have helped me to improve my life in so many ways. Thank you for being YOU…a truly incredible human being. I admire you so much, Sir.
To one door closing, and another door opening! Happy holiday season, my kinky friends ❤