Reflections on my younger self

Iโ€™ve been in a reflective mood lately, casting my thoughts to the past and to my journey in submission.  What I am about to share will hopefully make you laugh as you realize just what a nerdy girl I really am.  Picture this… a young nora, only five or six years old, wandering sleepy-eyed, filled with excitement, downstairs into a fully decorated, festive living room.  Lights on the tree and presents galore (there were four of us kids living at home still, so a TON of presents surrounding the Christmas tree).  To the left of the tree…there was this beautiful red and green, full-sized school desk with a big red bow.  I just knew it had to be for me!  And it was.  Smiling at this memory.  The most exciting and best gift of my entire childhood was a school desk.  Yes, folks…that is how much of a school nerd I really am ๐Ÿ˜Š.

I remember playing โ€œschoolโ€ with various friends.  One particular memory that really stands out, occurred with a girl older than me (the daughter of one of my momโ€™s friends).  Daddy and I decided I will refer to her as Darla.  Darla insisted on being the schoolteacher and I was the all too willing school girl.  Darla loved to be in charge and call the shots (side note, Daddy had the pleasure of meeting Darla back when we were in our early twenties, and he recalls the very WILD night we shared with her).  But back to young nora… young nora worked very hard to please Darla and to earn praise from her.  I obediently sat at my school desk and worked on any assignment she put in front of me.  I do remember Darla putting me in a time out once.  She made me stand in the corner while she corrected my work (she mostly gave me math problems to solve).  While she never spanked me… I sure do enjoy that fantasy as an adult ๐Ÿ˜‰ 

Fast forward to today… as woman in my 40โ€™s… still loving to play โ€œschoolโ€.  While that is not what we call it, I am still every bit that same girl…trying to please Sir (rather than Darla) with my obedience in completing the assignments he gives me.  I have come to realize that Sir and Iโ€™s dynamic is a bit different than many of the D/s dynamics which I read about, and I think this speaks to my inner desires to forever be a student…to be a good girl who is rewarded for obedience and disciplined for misbehavior.  Sir and Iโ€™s D/s dynamic has a huge emphasis on self-betterment and Sir stretching my mind in many ways through exposure to new authors, music genres, world events, and politics.  He sent me an assignment a couple of days ago (with a due date!) and I was swooning… it was absolutely thrilling for me!

I chuckle a bit as I re-read this and consider how exciting this all is for me.  I imagine that many submissives would much rather get an โ€œassignmentโ€ that is sexual in nature (and believe me, I enjoy those too), but I love the ways in which Sir dominates me.  He stretches my mind, exposes me to new ideas, and challenges me to really understand or develop my position on various issues.  And he manages to do this in a way that never feels judgy or overbearing, while still being incredibly strict with me.  Thank you, Sir!!! Your submissive is incredibly grateful to you.

I hope you enjoy the visual…this is how I picture myself…forever the obedient (albeit naughty) student ๐Ÿ˜Š

Keeping it kinky,


PS… This image is how I imagine Darla and I interacting as adults ๐Ÿ˜‰

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    1. Thank you Pelgris! This is definitely a lifestyle for me…it all feels very real. As Sir and I are long-distance, we can’t do in-person scenes, though I am submitting to him in a variety of sexual ways too. I appreciate your readership and you chiming in here! ๐Ÿ™‚

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  1. The image of little nora and her Christmas school desk is just precious. I’ve always been attracted to nerdy girls who have a love for learning. Why ever stop being a student? Add naughty to nerdy, and… scha-wing!!! ๐Ÿ™‚

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  2. Iโ€™m glad to see that Iโ€™m not the only one experiencing the obedient, studious, need to submissive pipeline. Lol. Much love ๐Ÿ’•

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  3. Oh my… just the idea of you getting excited about a desk has me grinning from ear to ear! We are such kindred spirits Nora, I was that nerdy girl deep down inside too, it was just too difficult to suppress my naughty girl sufficiently for my good girl to come out to play. I would dream of sitting in a classroom full of individual desks with lift up lids and inkwells! I wanted to learn how to write with a fountain pen but was given a pencil and never progressed past a ball point pen at school. I believe that was where my naughty kicked in! I was denied fresh ink and individuality! LOL We were made to sit at communal laminated grey desks and share space with at least 6 other kids. Oh god I hated it so much! The first purchase I made from my first wage packet was a beautiful Sheaffer Fountain pen that I still have and use to this day! I, like you, have a beautiful large leather topped oak desk that takes pride of place in my study and I have spent many delightful evenings bent over it taking a firm spanking from the Bear! That desk has had some seriously erotic moments carried out on it! I loved this post, it took me on a long trip down memory lane and the Bear enjoyed it thoroughly too for a whole host of different reasons! ๐Ÿ˜› xxx ๐Ÿ’Ž๐Ÿ˜ˆ๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿ’–

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    1. Kindred spirits we are, sexy Gemma! I had a pen fetish when I was younger but I do so little actual writing now. It’s all on the computer, unless Sir assigns me lines, which he does with great regularity. He sits me down in my naughty chair on my bare bottom, but that’s a story for another post. I loved reading about your beautiful oak desk and that you and the Bear have enjoyed some erotic moments there (and I am loving his new nickname, by the way). With regard to school, it does sound like our experience was a bit different. We did have the individual desks, in rows, that lifted up and had space to store your things inside. I don’t think that they were wood. The tops probably were laminated, but I remember always being so pleased each term when I was assigned a new desk. I have recently reconnected with my 6th grade teacher (I would have been about 10 years old in that grade) and she was not surprised at all to learn that I am a college professor. She shared that I was always one of her favorite students, so eager to learn. It has been fun running through these memories in my mind. Thank you for sharing!!! XOXO

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    1. Hi Grace Marie! So wonderful to hear from you. I hope that life is treating you and baby well. I am not surprised to learn that you were also of the submissive, school-loving nerdy mold! Hope we get to hear more about how you are doing โค XOXO

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  4. I’ve always found it interesting how most of us can trace the origins of our kinks back to childhood. I often wonder what it is that planted the seeds of our motivations. Thanks for the good read and the visual.

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  5. I sure do get where you are coming from….especially with assignments. I find in my own dynamic, it is the non-sexual assignments that arouse me more than the sexual ones…Mistress likes to call it the eroticisation of every day life, as she turns tasks or objects from my vanilla life into the tools and trappings of her domination and my submission.

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