Reflections on my younger self

I’ve been in a reflective mood lately, casting my thoughts to the past and to my journey in submission.  What I am about to share will hopefully make you laugh as you realize just what a nerdy girl I really am.  Picture this… a young nora, only five or six years old, wandering sleepy-eyed, filled with excitement, downstairs into a fully decorated, festive living room.  Lights on the tree and presents galore (there were four of us kids living at home still, so a TON of presents surrounding the Christmas tree).  To the left of the tree…there was this beautiful red and green, full-sized school desk with a big red bow.  I just knew it had to be for me!  And it was.  Smiling at this memory.  The most exciting and best gift of my entire childhood was a school desk.  Yes, folks…that is how much of a school nerd I really am 😊.

I remember playing “school” with various friends.  One particular memory that really stands out, occurred with a girl older than me (the daughter of one of my mom’s friends).  Daddy and I decided I will refer to her as Darla.  Darla insisted on being the schoolteacher and I was the all too willing school girl.  Darla loved to be in charge and call the shots (side note, Daddy had the pleasure of meeting Darla back when we were in our early twenties, and he recalls the very WILD night we shared with her).  But back to young nora… young nora worked very hard to please Darla and to earn praise from her.  I obediently sat at my school desk and worked on any assignment she put in front of me.  I do remember Darla putting me in a time out once.  She made me stand in the corner while she corrected my work (she mostly gave me math problems to solve).  While she never spanked me… I sure do enjoy that fantasy as an adult 😉 

Fast forward to today… as woman in my 40’s… still loving to play “school”.  While that is not what we call it, I am still every bit that same girl…trying to please Sir (rather than Darla) with my obedience in completing the assignments he gives me.  I have come to realize that Sir and I’s dynamic is a bit different than many of the D/s dynamics which I read about, and I think this speaks to my inner desires to forever be a student…to be a good girl who is rewarded for obedience and disciplined for misbehavior.  Sir and I’s D/s dynamic has a huge emphasis on self-betterment and Sir stretching my mind in many ways through exposure to new authors, music genres, world events, and politics.  He sent me an assignment a couple of days ago (with a due date!) and I was swooning… it was absolutely thrilling for me!

I chuckle a bit as I re-read this and consider how exciting this all is for me.  I imagine that many submissives would much rather get an “assignment” that is sexual in nature (and believe me, I enjoy those too), but I love the ways in which Sir dominates me.  He stretches my mind, exposes me to new ideas, and challenges me to really understand or develop my position on various issues.  And he manages to do this in a way that never feels judgy or overbearing, while still being incredibly strict with me.  Thank you, Sir!!! Your submissive is incredibly grateful to you.

I hope you enjoy the visual…this is how I picture myself…forever the obedient (albeit naughty) student 😊

Keeping it kinky,

nora      

PS… This image is how I imagine Darla and I interacting as adults 😉