Submission does not always come easy to me (giggles a little…you didn’t think I was well-behaved all the time, did you my kinky friends?). At times, my submission fits like a well-worn glove. The “Yes, Daddy’s” and “Yes, Sir’s” just flow off my tongue, and you’d think obedience was my first language. Lately though, I’ve been pondering why submitting is so easy at times, and why it is so darn hard at others.
One thing that I have learned is that how I am feeling emotionally and physically play a big part in how submissive I am. If I am feeling sad, neglected, or angry…submission does not come easily. If I am tired, hungry (or, h-angry), or if I have just had an orgasm…I am also likely to struggle with my submission. The orgasm one really blows me away, but I guess that is why some Doms keep their submissives in chastity. I have noticed that right after Daddy lets me cum, whether he is fucking me or he allows me to masturbate, all my submissiveness just melts away. But the idea of chastity is just too much (so Daddy, if you are reading this, forget I said anything on this front).
The thing is…when you commit to giving someone your submission… you should submit regardless of whether you feel like it or not. I feel like this is an area where I can improve. Sometimes, I get very stuck in my head and I let my feelings consume me. This is not helpful to me, or to my Daddy or my Sir. Just last night, while feeling very stressed about the upcoming day, I made a very snarky comment to Daddy. It was very unsubmissive of me, and a tad on the disrespectful side (though not bad enough to earn me a spanking). Daddy stopped what he was doing, came to me, and pulled my hair a bit to force my head back and my attention off what I was doing. Me speaking disrespectfully to Daddy is a rare occasion in our household these days, I must tell you. Gone is the girl who used to speak disrespectfully to her husband on a regular basis…but she still re-emerges during times of stress and I want her gone!
The thing is… I feel more happy, more peaceful, and more content when I am submitting. It is a very dreamy, beautiful state of mind for me. I want to experience that feeling more of the time…and experience less of this being stuck in my head and feeling anxious or stressed out. Spankings (and other forms of discipline) definitely help, but I think that this also has to come from within. I need to figure out how to better manage difficult feelings so that I can spend more time in my happy place….submitting to Daddy or Sir.
Any tips or advice welcome, my friends! To date, I have found that studying patience, journaling, and regular exercise are all helpful strategies. But I feel like I need to learn better self-control when it comes to feelings of neglect or feelings of anger.
Help a submissive out!
Keep it kinky,