Forgive me, my readers, for I have sinned #18+, NSFW

My dear friends,

I am very sorry to report that this girl has failed in her mission *head hanging down in shame*. 

If you haven’t been following along as of late, it was my full intention to edge myself relentlessly this week, denying myself climax until my Daddy returned home from his work trip on Friday night.  I promise you this…I really, really tried!

I edged myself twice on Monday.

I edged myself twice on Tuesday.

I had already edged myself twice on Wednesday when I thought, hey…I’m getting pretty good at this…I’ll up my game a bit.  I’d also had a rotten day, so it seemed fair to pleasure myself (without cumming) again before bedtime.  Positioning a few pillows between my thighs, I climbed on to my favorite pink jelly dildo and I began to ride that baby like a true cowgirl…God, it felt amazing!  I found myself gently tweaking my nipple….I was in absolute heaven…the stress of the day was finally melting away.  I felt my climax began to build, so I willed myself to still my body.  I stopped touching my nipple.  I tried to think non-sexy thoughts… like paying bills and bringing in firewood.  The feeling between my legs hadn’t totally subsided but it felt safe to continue for a little bit longer.  Afterall, I would just stop again when I felt my orgasm coming (cumming?) on.  I began to rock myself slowly, somewhat cautiously, on that damn dildo once again…

Wham! Bam! Thank you, Ma’am!  I have never had an orgasm hit me so fast! Before I was even cognizant of what was happening, my hips were rocking in wild abandon and I was crying out my husband’s name (and really freaking out my dogs with the out-of-nowhere commotion) as the most intense orgasm completely consumed me.  I’m telling you, this thing came on so fast, rocking me like a hurricane (a little Scorpions reference, for good measure 😊).  Completely spent, I literally fell over in the bed.  I lay there, panting, wondering what the hell just happened…

Once my brain cells returned to normal, it didn’t take a genius to figure it out!

Being the good girl that I am (well, maybe not so much “good”, but I am honest 😊), I shared this news with Daddy today the first time that I was able to speak to him on the phone.  I really did not want to tell him (or you guys!), but for the sake of honesty and authenticity, it had to be done.  As I have done here, I explained to him that I truly did not intend to allow myself to orgasm…but that ultimately, my self-control failed me and my body pretty much took what it wanted.  I, obviously, have a lot more to learn about controlling my orgasms. 

As you might know if you’ve been following along, Daddy told me that if I failed in this endeavor, the consequence would be that he would not touch me, or engage in sexual activity with me, until next week.  This is a pretty severe consequence (at least for this girl!) so he was fairly shocked when I gave him the news that I had failed.  He told me that he appreciated my honesty and that he understood that it was not my intention to purposefully go against our agreement (I promise you, I really was trying!).  I think it also helped that I got right back on the wagon and had been edging myself all day without allowing myself to cum.  Practice makes perfect, right?

I’m not sure what Daddy’s verdict will be.  He told me he will let me know after he’s had more time to consider the events.  What I do know is that I learned three things… 1) I need to learn better self-control, 2) Fucking one’s self on a dildo may not be a good idea in the early stages of learning to edge one’s self properly, and 3) A mere two and a half days of edging led to an incredibly intense orgasm!!!

I will definitely be giving this experiment another go 😊

Keep it kinky (and real), my friends!

XOXO,

Nora