I’m still here…

The last three years have been the most emotionally taxing of my time here on this earth.  Losing my mom and my brother, the heart ache in my marriage, the feelings of acute loneliness are too much at times for this girl to handle.  There have been days where I just wanted to give up and days where I just wanted to walk away.

I find myself wishing, like a child, that someone would come along and rescue me.  But somehow…I have to find it within to rescue myself.

What will that look like?  I know it starts with physical and emotional health.  I know that I need to find my passion.  A lot of my energy goes towards helping people who suffer from mental illness, but at the end of the day, my cup is left empty.  I need to find the beauty in this world again, to see the light around me.

Maybe this is just life.  But, it’s never been my life.  I’ve always been able to find happiness where I was, make the best of whatever I was presented with.  The year that I found out my husband was cheating, and then months later my mom died unexpectedly….it’s like my flame just went out.  I need to figure out how to re-light it, how to get my groove back, how to be me again.

I’ve been gone forever, and now I’m back posting negative crap. Sorry about that.  I continue to follow you all and love reading about your journeys.  Keep those sexy recollections coming!  Or, should I say, cumming?  LOL.

Take good care,


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    1. Thank you, furcissy! I’m okay, no need to worry. Just need to figure out how to get my sparkle back. I have been loving the pictures of the cuffs and collars you have been working on! They look straight out of your stories 🙂

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  1. Dear Nora! I wish I could take away your pain. Like furcissy, I think of you often. You have always impressed me as a strong woman with a great deal of wisdom. I thought your marriage was beginning to get better with a new amount of trust. I hope that is still true. It’s never easy to lose a parent. It would help if you were able to lean on your hubby to help with that recovery. Regardless, feel free to email me if you want to vent or just talk. I’m happy to help if I can. And anytime you visit my heart welcomes you with open arms. All the best!

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    1. You are the best, michael! Thank you for those kinds words. Things between my husband and I are definitely on the path toward healing, but it is a long journey. He has been extremely supportive…it’s really not that. It’s more something about me…and needing to find who I am again. I need to find my sparkle, that part of myself that would shine brightly and bring joy into the world. For a long time, my soul has just felt….tired. I want to come alive again, if that makes sense. I am officially on a campaign to find my sparkle! Thank you for continuing to be there, reading my posts. All my love to you and your Queen 🙂

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      1. Honestly, you always brighten my day! So as far as I’m concerned, you have all the sparkle you need. I just want you to feel it. Stay well!

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    1. Totally agree! It’s only unhealthy when you are intent on hurting yourself! You can’t hurt others with words of self condemnation.

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  2. Hang in there. Share when you can. This is not a competition to be the kinkiest.Be real. Put your thoughts out there. Maybe you will discover the common touch points of frustration, anger, pain. You might even heal, a little at a time.

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    1. LOL…I love that you wrote that, David! Absolutely not a competition to be the kinkiest…though damn, I could use a little more of that in my life right now. Writing does help me and I definitely need to put more energy towards it. Time to kick this depression and find my sparkle!


  3. Hi Nora! So good to read your words again and it doesn’t matter that they’re not happy spanky words, your fans follow you for who you are and not just for the swats and the rosy glowing cheeks. Like Collared Michael and furcissy and the others I have missed you too. Thank you for posting and letting us know you’re still there, I hope you find your way out of the deep dark woods again soon. 💖

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    1. Thank you, Whippoorwill! Your continued support and readership really mean a lot! I hope that one day my posts are spanky once again, but in the meantime, I’m hoping to blog more about my journey to finding me again. Hope all is well! 🙂

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  4. Been thinking of you and how you are doing lately. Sometimes you just need a place to vent. It’s not easy dealing with losses like yours, but find beauty in each and every day. They will balance out the negatives in your life. Hugs.

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    1. Thank you, nuttykitten! I love your focus on the positive. That has always been me….I just need to reconnect with that girl again. Hope all is well in your world! Hugs ❤


    1. LOL…I’m not sure how popular my blog is, but I love the group of friends that I have. We have all been supporting each other, and each other’s blogs, for awhile now. If you are seeking more exposure to your blog, take the time to read the blogs of others and interact with them. Blogging is a two way street. That said, I will definitely cruise on over to your blog and check it out! Happy spanking 🙂


  5. Hey Nora, good to hear from you. Don’t worry about posting ‘negative crap’ – feelings are all valid and I rather read a few of your truthful thoughts than a ton of Pollyanna-ish BS. That is a whole bunch of crap you’ve been dealing with and I’m so sorry to hear about it. Taking your time away to start to regroup is important. Glad that process has begun, no matter how far away good things seem. You are an amazing talent. And loved and valued here.

    I look forward to hearing when your ready for the next chapter. Whenever that may be.

    Take care xx

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    1. Thank you, Miss D! My life isn’t totally devoid of kinkiness and spanking mischief, it just isn’t what I am focused on right now. Looking to get my sparkle back! Thank you for being there 🙂

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  6. Our lives last longer than today. Past days held both laughter and tears, so will the future. See the small things in today that make you smile and reflect on those moments as you ponder the day as a whole. That bit reminds us that even storms can have their beauty.

    Good luck ma’am.

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  7. So sorry to hear about the loss that you have encountered I can only offer you thoughts and prayers from afar. May the sunshine return soon and life’s sparkle return to your eyes and smile and soul. Allow yourself to feel the way you do, it’s natural. Put yourself first, you will thank yourself young lady 🙏🙏🙏🙏🌹

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