26 Days of Sex & Submission, A-Z Challenge
LOL…I am laughing at myself for my total failure in following through with my own writing challenge! It’s been quite awhile since I posted Day 2 of my Sex & Submission Challenge. Well, here goes it!
Day 3 of Sex & Submission, Letter C
All afternoon, it’s like the letter “C” has been branded with a hot iron upon my mind…clitoris, corporal punishment, cunnilingus, chastise, coitus, carnal knowledge, craving, cunt, cane, cuffs…oh my…so many decadent ideas to choose from! Where does a naughty blogger even begin? Well, I have to start somewhere, so let’s start with “crying”.
For me, crying is an incredibly important stage in a discipline spanking. When I finally break down and cry, it means that 1) The pain has become intense and nearly intolerable (which is a good deterrent against future bad behavior, and 2) That I am not only physically, but mentally and emotionally ready to submit to my husband. I see crying as a release…a release of power, stubbornness, and ego. When I cry from the pain of a spanking inflicted by my Daddy, I feel small, submissive, and ready to obey.
And yet, it is rare that I truly cry from the pain of a spanking. I may cry out, and plead for it to end…but real tears are often just a few more spanks away. Does this mean that Daddy is stopping my spanking prematurely? I worry that he may be. I worry that this might be why he has to spank me for repeated offenses. And, I worry that my spankings may have become “routine”. I understand how this has happened…time constraints, worrying about the effects the sounds may have on our pets, being married to a kind man who doesn’t have a sadistic bone in his body and actually doesn’t like hurting me, and so on….but, I think it is time for Daddy and I to have a conversation about crying.
I will most likely regret writing this post as I feel Daddy will see it as a cue to take my spankings to the next level…time will tell!
Thank you for reading 😊
Love, nora
Finding Strength in my Submission 
Crying works on so many levels for me, I adore it. Even when I’m needing my big fat tears and runny nose taken care of while my hands are bound…
Great read, and good luck with any changes your daddy makes 😉
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Thank you, barefootsub! I need to cry too…even when it is from pain, it is such a good release.
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Totally understand that need to cry. But even during the most intense of spankings, Kit could never cry. Was only during the most unexpected moments when Kit’s emotional guard was down and when Master would say something that triggers an unknown emotion, thats when Kit found herself crying.
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Thank you for sharing, kit! After reading your comment, I realized that I forgot to write about how his lecturing can bring me to tears (as well as the spanking). I appreciate you stopping by and responding 🙂
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Ah, delicious conflict. Crying is definitely my holy grail because of how hard it is to get me there. I need it sometimes and have to hold that need for years. I hope your Daddy can understand that you might need the release and how much trust you have to offer this to him. Maybe that is something he can focus on rather than “hurting “ you.
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Thank you, jadescastle! I think it would be helpful if he could conceptualize spanking me until the point that I cry as something special between us, rather than as something he is doing that hurts me.
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I, like you, hardly ever cry during a spanking, although I do as you say cry out. By crying, I mean wailing or sobbing which I never do. However real tears do shed and roll down my face. Sometimes, She will check for tear tracks and if there are none, she will place me back into position and continue the spanking until tears are evident. Tears are a release and a sure sign the spanking is effective.
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Agreed, spankedcowboy! It can sure take awhile to get there sometimes though…
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I don’t think I’m brave enough to. E shanked until I cry. I can feel when the time for an extra long shower is approaching. These comments have me thinking about tears and release and what other ways are there to that end than spanking…. hmm.
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Another way that I get that release, and please don’t laugh, is by watching disaster movies…movies like 2012, Twister, Dante’s Peak…for whatever reason, those movies make me bawl like a baby. Sometimes, if my husband senses that I am really worked up emotionally, he’ll play one of those just to help me find release.
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I like that he notices! I have to hide to cry, but The Joy Luck Club would get me every time if I let myself watch it!
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