A few weeks ago, Daddy and I re-committed ourselves to our domestic discipline lifestyle. We both felt that we had become very infatuated with D/s, sexual exploration, rituals, etc., and that the purpose of why we were changing our relationship climate was getting lost in the excitement. Not saying the other stuff isn’t hugely exciting and satisfying, but….
We decided that it would be beneficial that I record my transgressions and my punishments throughout the week so that Daddy could review my behavior each week before my Sunday maintenance spanking. I had recently seen a beautiful leather journal in a book shop and now having a valid reason to buy it, I brought it home. Daddy and I both wrote out our commitments to one another on the first page.
Daddy’s commitment reads, “I promise to love, honor, cherish, to take care of, and to hold accountable my beautiful baby girl”.
My commitment reads, “I promise to love, honor, and obey my Husband. He is my Husband and my Daddy and I will always show him respect”.
On the second page, we listed all of our agreed upon punishments, which include things like spanking, tawse to the hands, mouth soaping, punishment lines, grounding, etc. This was done for Daddy’s benefit as he likes to switch things up a bit and not always rely on spanking.
This week was a rough week. Daddy and I had many commitments and I was feeling a lot of pressure about traveling out of town for my niece’s birthday party. It was also ridiculously hot where we live and that is getting to both of us. When I review the punishment book for this week, I see that Daddy had to discipline me on three occasions. My misbehavior this week included:
Transgression: Not handling stress well, disrespectful tone. Punishment: Spanking and corner time.
Transgression: Failure to submit- trying to stop Daddy from touching me as I was afraid someone might see and I might feel embarrassed. Punishment: 5 strokes of the tawse to each hand.
Transgression: Showing Daddy extreme disrespect by walking outside to grab something while he was talking to me. Punishment: Hard, lengthy paddling and scolding.
When I review my punishment book for this week, I feel quite disappointed in myself. While I have come a long way since the beginning of our journey, I continue to struggle in fully submitting to my husband’s will and authority. My submission to him makes him hugely happy and I want more than anything to give him that gift. This week, I pledge to continue to read my new book, “The Surrendered Wife” and I will search for a new daily writing prompt, similar to the 30 Days of D/s presented by Loving BDSM. I found when I was writing about submission daily that I was more apt to stay in the right frame of mind.
Daddy and I are headed out for a swim but I know my weekly maintenance spanking will occur after that. Feeling a bit nervous as it has been quite a while since I had to be disciplined three times in one week for misbehavior. I have a feeling that I will be sleeping on my tummy tonight.
I hope you are all well and that you are in cooler parts of the world!
Happy writing 🙂