As I think about my life and my current situation, I can’t help but wish my inner child’s wish… that nothing would change again. Unfortunately, this last year, I have learned that life changes in an instant and we have very little control sometimes in the situations which matter most. As we approach the one-year anniversary of my mother’s passing, I have been on a carnival ride of emotion…up, down, sideways. And yet, somehow, despite losing my mom, my younger brother, and our fur baby…I am able to find happiness most days. I am proud of that. I am also proud of the changes that Daddy and I have made in our relationship. We are stronger, closer, and more intimate as a couple. It blows my mind that we found this dynamic, a dynamic that suits both of us greatly, during the most difficult year of my life.
Currently, I am not teaching and I am not working in a clinic. My time is mostly my own (and Daddy’s). This has been a special time for me. One of healing and self-growth. And I’ll admit, of self-indulgence. I mostly do what I want, when I want, with the exception of completing tasks assigned by Daddy. I will miss this time when life changes at the end of the summer and I am once again inundated with clients at the clinic and teaching multiple night classes. I will miss this relatively stress-free existence, where I exist to serve and please my husband.
Life will change, that is inevitable. There will be good changes and there will be changes which bring about unhappiness. I guess all we can do is roll with the punches, make lemonade out of life’s lemons, or whatever cliché you prefer. Keep on, keeping on!
Happy writing 🙂
nora
Finding Strength in my Submission 
The good thing about DD, is that stress, worry, grief, fear: in fact, most emotions, can be tempered by a good, hard spanking. Change is not a negative, it’s how we react that makes the difference. Expressing your feelings is quite healthy. So is being spanked.
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Agreed, LS. How I wish I could share this information with my clients. I can see the headlines now, “Psychologist encourages wife spanking!” 🙂
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“Film at 11!”
It’s so misunderstood, you can only model the benefits and explain when asked.
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Exactly. I have been considering getting further training and certificates in sex therapy. I think it is something that I would enjoy, and, should the topic of D/s come up in that context I feel it would then be appropriate to discuss with clients.
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Absolutely, sounds like a great idea. You have a natural ability to teach, and combined with learning how to be more submissive, you would bring a unique flavor to education.
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It would definitely be interesting! Way more fun than family & marriage counseling 🙂
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Sorry for your losses…=( Kit too had went through that years ago…so Kit understands the emotional carnival ride. With time, the rides will be smoother =) enjoy your summer vacation!
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Thank you, Kit! I appreciate the words of support. I had someone tell me that the pain never really goes away, but that it does soften.
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Another new blog for you to explore.
https://queanpigsney.wordpress.com/page/
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I will check it out, thank you LS! 🙂
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I have found that with D/s, and I imagine that DD is pretty much the same, the focus is so much on each other that we are able to keep our relationship at the centre and let the other things, changes included, spin around us. They are a part of what is happening but are not the focus and that means that we can deal with them and just absorb them rather than them absorbing us. We have had a challenging 18 months but that has not mattered. It has altered things, including our lifestyle, but we have just shifted to adapt to it together. Being able to have time to devote to the things that are important to you is amazing but I am sure that you will find a way to work with the changes that going back to work brings. 😊
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Thank you for the thoughtful comment, missy! I like how you worded this “we can deal with them and just absorb them rather than them absorbing us”. That is a fantastic perspective. 🙂
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I have found it to be true. And I have also found that friends who understand have helped me to manage when the panic that change causes sets in. It does impact on things but if you lean back on the D/s then it really works to help you manage it.
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From my short experience with D/s…I couldn’t agree more! 🙂
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I would love to attend a class regarding DD/D’s from someone practicing it happily. To offten you only get tought if from the negatives of a sexual deviance perspective.
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Agreed! I too would love to attend a seminar or conference (in a state far away from my own). Also, I read about a type of hotel that I had no idea existed on a friend’s blog yesterday…there are actually dungeon hotels out there! The bedrooms are totally designed for BDSM play. I told Daddy about it and he said we can definitely go to one someday. Exciting! What I love about the idea of conferences and themed hotels, etc., is that it normalizes the experience for those of us who enjoy such things. I do not conceptualize myself as deviant or odd because of my desire for submission and crazy hot sex with my husband. Wow…I’m on a roll this morning 🙂 Sorry for the rant!
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Rant on my friend! I totally agree! If it makes you happy and harms no one else….spank away!
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LOL 🙂 🙂 🙂
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