As I think about my life and my current situation, I can’t help but wish my inner child’s wish… that nothing would change again. Unfortunately, this last year, I have learned that life changes in an instant and we have very little control sometimes in the situations which matter most. As we approach the one-year anniversary of my mother’s passing, I have been on a carnival ride of emotion…up, down, sideways. And yet, somehow, despite losing my mom, my younger brother, and our fur baby…I am able to find happiness most days. I am proud of that. I am also proud of the changes that Daddy and I have made in our relationship. We are stronger, closer, and more intimate as a couple. It blows my mind that we found this dynamic, a dynamic that suits both of us greatly, during the most difficult year of my life.
Currently, I am not teaching and I am not working in a clinic. My time is mostly my own (and Daddy’s). This has been a special time for me. One of healing and self-growth. And I’ll admit, of self-indulgence. I mostly do what I want, when I want, with the exception of completing tasks assigned by Daddy. I will miss this time when life changes at the end of the summer and I am once again inundated with clients at the clinic and teaching multiple night classes. I will miss this relatively stress-free existence, where I exist to serve and please my husband.
Life will change, that is inevitable. There will be good changes and there will be changes which bring about unhappiness. I guess all we can do is roll with the punches, make lemonade out of life’s lemons, or whatever cliché you prefer. Keep on, keeping on!
Happy writing 🙂