Reflecting on 30 Days of D/s- Day 1

Reflecting on 30 Days of D/s- Day 1

Hello fellow bloggers! I have decided to partake in the 30 Days of D/s, which I will utilize as a writing exercise, presented by John Brownstone and Kayla Lords at Loving BDSM.  As suggested by the title, this free activity explores topics surrounding D/s relationships.  I know that there are many of us in this particular circle of writers who are engaged in this writing activity at the moment, so bear with me.  I think that this will be a useful endeavor in further exploring this new lifestyle that Daddy and I have set out on.  As always, thank you for reading!

~nora

 

Loving BDSM’s 30 Days of D/s – Day 01

Writing prompt: What does dominance in a relationship mean to you? What traits will a Dominant have? How should a Dominant behave?

Conceptualizing dominance in a relationship is challenging as it is fluid over time, it ebbs and flows with the changing seasons of our hearts and desires, and it changes shape as the two individuals grow both together and as individuals.  In trying to articulate dominance in my marriage, I would start with the idea that only one person in my marriage is “dominant” and it is certainly not me.  My husband demonstrates dominance in our marriage, dominance over me, at all times.  At this point in our lives, today, that means that he sets rules for me, he structures my free time, he expects obedience and if I disobey him, disrespect him, or displease him, I can expect to be disciplined.  He has full authority and control over my body which I have given, willingly.  I have also given him freely the authority to influence how I think and how I feel.  That is his dominance over me today.  Had I been asked to articulate this four months ago, I probably would have focused on the spankings, the humiliation, and oh, the sex!  But that was back when this still felt like a “game”, whereas now, it is our way of life.  By the way, there are still spankings, humiliation, and incredible sex but that is really not the focus at this point…his dominance incurring my submission, in all facets of our lives, is.  In our marriage, dominance is our way of life, discipline is the currency, and marital satisfaction is the reward.  Perhaps dominance will mean something different for us in the future…

What traits will a dominant have?  I only know my own dominant, my own Daddy, and those traits are admirable (and incredibly sexy to me as his submissive wife).  He is strong, courageous, patient, consistent, loyal, and incredibly generous.  I write that he is strong because he leads our marriage, he provides a path for me in this life, and he is physically capable of controlling my being.  I write that he is courageous because he was willing to consider a lifestyle that his wife presented to him four months ago that would require a huge amount of change and commitment on his side, as well as mine.  I write that he is patient because his wife, his submissive, his baby girl was learning very slowly how to please him and he never gave up on her and continues to help her along this path of submission.  I write that he is consistent because he has informed me fully of the rules and if I do not follow them, there will be discipline that he enforces to help me do better…and this happens each and every time.  He does not forget my infractions, even if he cannot discipline me immediately.  The discipline will commence, on his timetable, I can be sure of that.  I write that he is loyal because he shows me every day how I am the only woman for him and that our marriage is of the upmost importance to him through his attentions to my emotional and physical wellbeing.  And lastly, I write that he is incredibly generous because to be honest, I was not the least bit submissive when we began this journey and he has freely given his time and attentions 24/7 for the last four months to whip me into shape (pun intended).  His dedication to the decision we made together to commit to this beautiful lifestyle awes me.  I know, I know…what I have described sounds like the super hero of all dominants, right?  Well, my Daddy is my super hero.  No, he’s not perfect by any means…but he is perfect for me.

How should a dominant behave?  Well, that is not up for me to decide in my own D/s marriage, however; what I have observed in Daddy is that the behavior of a dominant is calm, in control, firm, and unyielding.  To explain how Daddy behaves through example, consider the little girl (me) who is throwing a fit and being disrespectful, all because she cannot deal with her own emotions in that moment…does Daddy get mad, say hurtful things, engage in a fight?  No… Daddy calmly send the little girl to the corner so she can reflect on why she is behaving the way she is.  And if this doesn’t work to help her back into the right mindset, Daddy shows her firmly who is in control with his unyielding palm upon her misbehaving behind until tears are cried, and obedience is re-established.  Another example?  Picture Daddy and his little girl out running errands.  It’s been a long day.  All day the little girl argues with Daddy about irrelevant things, reverting to prior, poor behaviors, and in general, acting like a spoiled brat.  Does Daddy get angry, disappointed, sarcastic, drawn into a disagreement?  No, Daddy simply pulls the little girl aside while at the checkout stand and tells her in his calm, authoritative tone that she will be getting a spanking when she gets home.  Does it bother Daddy that the young man running the register most likely over heard his promise?  No, it does not, for he is confident in his role as this little girl’s Husband, her Daddy, her Dominant.  He behaves as it pleases him.  He behaves in ways that strengthen our bond.  He behaves in ways that I truly admire.

Reflection: In addressing this prompt, I spent more time considering all that my dominant does for me.  His role is not an easy one.  It is one that demands self-control and acute awareness.  Exploring dominance, as it pertains to my own D/s marriage, was eye-opening and insightful.  I look forward to tomorrow’s prompt.

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11 thoughts on “Reflecting on 30 Days of D/s- Day 1

  1. It seems much longer than four months. 🙂 You’ve written an excellent essay about the dynamic that dominance requires. He took control, at your request, and created a special bond based on your decision to explore submission.

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    1. Thank you for the compliment, LS! We are almost to five months, started at the end of January. Off to see my writing prompt for today! Hope you have a wonderful Saturday 🙂

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    1. We are just shy of fives months, but yes, this is still pretty new to us. Learning how to live this lifestyle day-to-day, through all of life’s challenges…it’s tuff! In just those few months we’ve dealth with the loss of my brother, my husband being super sick with pneumonia, and just this week…losing our fur baby of 14 years. Though it has been a difficult road, living D/s or DD has helped us stay connected and has helped us communicate our feelings.

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